Optimist

It’s with a heavy heart that I write you this note, knowing the amount of pain it is going to cause you. Mum, I want you to know that I love you dearly and will ever love you. If I am given the opportunity to live again I will still choose you as my mum and our family will still be my place of birth. But unfortunately, I know that there is not going to be any such opportunity. Mum, I didn’t want to do this, but I was compelled by circumstances beyond my control to take the plunge. I tried my best to pull through, but my best was not good enough. I battled alone for about thirteen months now until my strength failed me. You and dad could not decipher what I was going through and maybe I should not blame you for that. My one and only brother came very close to understanding what I was passing through but it was too much for his young mind to comprehend. Mum, I know that you and dad loved me and did everything you could to prove that to me but I was not feeling loved. ...

"Mochomin chi kou ye ichomegei, amagurenen chi kiy ye metinye kiy ne nengung" by a renowned kalenjin elder. Sich komongunet ile kou ye sobei  cheptailel ne nomu sobet ak koberuri bikyik, aegu agane kiy eng taitatab bik ak bororiet. Mobuch kogiletabgei ne igiligei ichenge sobon,morue mungu,kerin ago tetei che miach agobo inye mutai. Iterteri tugul che uen eng taingung ak kosuldaun mungu che imokchinigei. Moting'u chi borotetab chi, mungu inegei ne igochin chi.